It's The Little Achievements That Count: March2015

What I did:

• WTF: met up with Jason after a year of not seeing him
• kinda started running.. and doing sit ups.
• can finally (and positively) say: I'M OVER IT
• lived through a good portion of my group project... and didn't kill anyone

TREAT YO'SELF:

• I went out a lot this month...

If You Could Change The Past...

... I would change nothing.

Michelle and I were talking today and this came up as a topic.

Now, of course this isn't the first time, nor the last time this question will be asked. And not surprisingly I was thinking about this very question a few days ago. So I answered her the same way I came up with my answer:

I would not change a single thing.

Sure I regret things.. I could have been a better sister growing up, a better daughter, maybe I could have been nicer to that person..

I remember reading a short story in high school English class, called "A Sound of Thunder" (had to Google it: my memory isn't that good!!). Which talks about the butterfly effect.

So won't altering my past effect who I am today?

Would I not talk to someone and avoid being friends with them because we end up falling out? Would I not date someone because they broke my heart? Would I not be kind to someone because I know they will end up using me?

No.

Because even though I have regrets and painful memories... they are still memories, still experiences. I've learned from all of those things and they made me who I am today. They made me stronger, kinder and more appreciative of all the wonderful people around me.

So, no. I will not look back into the past to see what I COULD have changed. Those are the building blocks that became me.
And I am still building, there's so much future ahead! So much more to see and to try. With these, I'll try to become the best person I can be.

So bring it on life, I can take you.









(it's fucking 2AM.. and I don't know if I make any more sense. but screw editing)

It's The Little Achievements That Count: February2015

What I did:

• reorganized my bookshelf. so much room for more books!
• reorganized my closet and room. it feels so much more open now.
• started outsourcing my little snippets of thought to twitter
• gave my number out to a cute waiter! (it was so exhilarating! first time I did this ever)
• got contacts/recommendations for a tattoo place and a hair stylist
• mailed in my expiring scholarship form
• took myself (and my sister) to the adult's night at the aquarium

THIS MONTH WENT BY SO FASTTTTTTT

TREAT YO'SELF:

• bought a whole bunch of DVDs from Target. Especially the three seasons of Sherlock
• bought myself a pair of shoes
• new lipstick! (which I am totally in love with)

(I might have spoiled myself a little too much this month xD)

It's The Little Achievements That Count: January2015

I've thought a lot this month. And wanted to see what achievements I could accomplish in one month. No matter how small they were... I wanted to get something done. I also wanted to make sure I spoiled myself too. Why not make a reward for yourself right?

What I did:

• got to go back to school. woo?
• realized who the most important people to me are. who truly care and who to truly love. 
• realized that I only live for me. that my happiness is the most important
• hung out with a bunch of people who I have not seen in a while.
• had the most meaningful conversations
• ordered my highschool transcripts and working on my last scholarship monies

SPOILERS (the most important part):

• LOBSTER STICKY RICE with the best people on the planet. :)

Starting Again

"It's February and it might be too late to start New Year's resolutions, but I'm trying something else. I'm trying to see what sort of things I can achieve each month. To at least achieve one thing, no matter how small. Also, I've always found that writing what I think/feel helps me de-stress, just lately I've thrown it under a rug.

I've had a blog once and I've stopped doing that... it's stupid but it was because I had gotten myself a boyfriend and tell him everything and thought it redundant to say things twice. I had physically written in a journal - the things that I couldn't (or didn't want to) tell the boy.. but I've never given myself time to write. I always wrote on transit and then when I got home, I didn't want to write anymore. My entry for one day would span out into a week and whatever I wrote wouldn't even matter anymore.

So. Now that it's a new year, I figured I would try to start this again. This is something I've always had and somewhere along the way I lost it.

I'm making this year about me. I'm going to find things I've lost, things that are most important to me, the things I want. This is me."

This was copied from the blog that I started last week. I think I'll keep one for public viewing and one for me. :)